TURN ME ON
a practice container for women
Your turn on is your superpower.
This is a safe space for you to intentionally create an intimate practice and devotional relationship with your turn on as a gift to yourself, your partner, and the world.
This is a safe space to bring whatever is alive for you, right here, right now. The FUCK YES, I'm so turned on how do I make it even more of a sacred prayer to the What The Fuck Turn On. It's all welcome. Spoiler alert: even when we have a deep practice with turn on, we will never feel turned on all the time... it is how we choose to honor that in those moments that make us even more alive and available for love and pleasure.
My prayer is that all women can feel the potent power that exists in the core essence of her turn on.
DEEP PRACTICEPURPOSE:
May all women feel the potent power that exists in your sexuality. May you feel the pulse of all the energies in the universe that lives within us. May you honor your capacity to TURN ON by radiating pleasure through every cell in our being to activate pleasure, desire and TURN ON in ourselves, our partners and the world.
INTENTIONS:
Deeply connect with the purpose of our TURN ON in our heart. | Bring radical self-awareness to our thoughts, feelings, judgements and perceptions of TURN ON in ourselves, others, and the world. | Integrate our shadows, fears, and contraction of TURN ON to make space for flow of energy. | Access TURN ON in our own bodies to find where TURN ON lives and how it feels, for only the pleasure of you and you alone... even access it when you "don't want to". | Play with all the textures and range of TURN ON. | Being available for TURN ON as an invitation, generosity, availability, and gifting. | Your devotional commitment to TURN ON for only the highest and greatest good for all.
IMPACT:
You feel more alive than ever. You have more vitality and capacity to connect with your life force in a moment. Your pleasure is YOURS - you feel it as a gift and a superpower. You KNOW your capacity to TURN ON to open more love in a moment, space or human. You embody the truth that it is safe to be receptive to all the pleasures of life through your TURN ON.
STRUCTURE
This is a safe space to deeply connect with your turn on.
Each call will explore an essence of turn on with an embodiment practice to move it through the body with breath, sound, and movement. After the practice, there will be space for integration with a Q&A and live coaching.
Please honor the vulnerability and confidentiality of the women in this container and only share your own experience outside of this container.
Please set up your space with room to move freely and make sound, you will want either a yoga mat on the floor or a sheepskin.
Please dedicate this time to be free from distractions of technology, animals, children or partners - this is just as if you were going into a yoga class, for one hour, the only thing that exists is you, the mat and your practice. On these calls, I invite you to make sound, take up space and free the energy that wants to move.
If you've never done embodiment work, you will be gently guided to move your body in a way that feels good and you're safe to explore what's alive. If you are a deep practitioner, I invite you to explore your edges and find what's new and alive for you.
All calls will be recorded if you cannot make the live call and all recordings will live here, in the online portal.
LIVE PRACTICE CALLS + INTEGRATION:
Monday, April 1st | 5-6pm pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
BONUS CALL: Friday, April 5th | 5 - 6pm - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
Monday, April 8th | 5-6pm pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
Monday, April 15th | 10-11am pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
Monday, April 22nd | 10-11am pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
Monday, April 29th | 10-11am pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
Monday, May 6th | 10-11am pst - RECORDED IN THE PORTAL
all calls, resources, and meditations recorded in the portal
DEEP PRACTICE
INTENTIONALITY OF TURN ON
The first invitation in our time together is to commit to a devotional commitment to Turn On... right now and through out this container, where can you become more aware to what turns you on? How can you intentionally set up your life to experience more turn on?
The next invitation is to explore your own intentionality of Turn On. Take a few moments to journal your intentions. What is your purpose, or why do you want to connect with turn on now? How do you want to feel turned on, what intentions do you want to set for this container and beyond? What impact do you want turn on to have in your life - for you, your partner, and the world around you? A tool to bring awareness to our turn on moment to moment is a question: on a scale of 1-10, 1 being crunchy and crispy, not turned on at all, and a 10 being dripping wet and burning HOT, so turned on, how connected do you feel to your turn on right now?
Hold the intention: What if my turn on was sacred?
Hold the intention: What if my turn on was sacred?
The next video gives an introduction and sets the tone for our practice.
PRACTICE: YOUR TURN ON IS SACRED
Allow your breath to guide your practice. Go into your turn on through your heart, down to your pussy and into the earth, then up from the earth, to your pussy, and up to your heart.
Integration
Deep bow of gratitude for your practice and sharing your vulnerable experience. In speaking about our experience, we see what is similar in others and allow for the lessons to integrate. Trust that the Light is time released and all healing will occur as it is meant to.
STORIES, PERSPECTIVES, BELIEFS AND JUDGEMENTS OF TURN ON
We explore the stories, judgements, beliefs and perspectives we have known to be true in our lives. As we are exploring these stories we look through the three spheres of energy in which we interact. We begin at a global scale thinking about perspectives from society. The next sphere we consider is that of our sphere of influence - those that are directly connected to us, it can be our colleagues, friends, family, lover, or even those we meet in passing at a coffee shop. When exploring this sphere, it can hold a lot of emotional charge because it often comes from those we love the most. There is a particular sting that comes from these judgements. Then the third most internal sphere is the sphere of YOU. Your energy, your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions... this is also your wounding when it comes to what you believe to be true when accessing your turn on. The purpose in connecting with these different perspectives is to bring awareness and shine light on our beliefs. When we shine the light on our shadows, we begin to integrate the gifts they offer.
All of these perspectives we explore are through the intention of shining light in order to bring awareness to the potent power we have access to through our turn on.
Practice: Feeling the gift of your shadows of turn on
Allow whatever is present in the moment to be fully expressed. Give yourself permission to fully touch the heartache, the fear, and the contraction of the shadows of your turn on. What we touch fully dissolves. By feeling the contrast of our shadows, we can also feel our light and the superpower that exists in our turn on.
Integration
The more we give our shadow the space to be felt, the less amount of charge it will hold. We can be all things at once and sometimes, feeling our shadow without a need for it to be different is all we need to create more spaciousness and find the gift that exists underneath our deepest wounds.
CONNECTING WITH WHERE TURN ON LIVES WITHIN YOU
The intention behind this week is to connect with where turn on lives within our bodies. We often believe that turn on is something that has to happen for someone else or only in specific situations. We often believe that our turn on should look a particular way. We look to explore pleasure as the foundation of our turn on. When we can be a full bodied yes to our turn on we can connect it with the subtle energy within us and cultivate our capacity to hold more energy.
PRACTICE: ALLOWING YOUR TURN ON TO REVEAL HERSELF TO YOU
We begin this practice with the Tantric Rose Breath. This breath is an inhaling through pursed lips, like you are sipping in through a straw. On the inhale you sip the air in and fill your belly and pelvic floor, allowing your hips to rock backwards and arch your back. The exhale is long and slow through an open mouth like you are fogging up a mirror. On the exhale, allow yourself to melt your spine into the mat and roll your hips up and forward in a thrust. Keep that breath as it will build your capacity to hold even more pleasure. Allow your turn on to reveal herself through the breath and the invitation is to get curious of where she might emerge from a place that is different than your habitual access points to turn on. Can you access the turn on in the subtle? Can you allow your turn on to consume your very essence?
Integration
It is sometimes easier to access turn on and pleasure when we are in an overt state of intended sexual action. The super power comes from learning to access it and amplify it from the subtle. Our practice builds the foundation for even more pleasure to pulse through our bodies in an instant.
OPENING AS THE INVITATION FROM DRIPPING DIVINE TURN ON
Eyes are the window to your soul.... so let's watch your soul unfurl in turn on. How can your turn on be an opening as an invitation? Often times, we connect with our turn on only as a sexual act and when we can see ourselves in our own turn on through the lens of us that is our most turned on self, the version that doesn't feel shadows or contraction around turn on, we get to build our capacity to be with more energy. The subtle nuance of opening as an invitation comes from keeping your energy down, wide, and rolled back as if you are falling back into yourself.
PRACTICE: OPENING AS THE INVITATION | MIRROR PRACTICE
The invitation in this practice is to do it in front of a mirror. I love a full length mirror and set up your mat on the floor in front so you can watch your turn on drip off your essence. Yes, holding your own eye contact for a whole practice of amplifying your turn on might be edgy but how the fuck do you expect to do it with a man if you can't do it with yourself. WATCH yourself open to the pulse of pleasure and turn the volume all the way up on your turn on.
INTEGRATION
Take notice of the habits you have in turn on - how do you want to eject from the energy when it feels like too much? What textures or different aspects of range could you incorporate?
MORE PLEASURE
Thank you for trusting me on this part of your journey.
My deepest bow of gratitude... In love, Kendall xx.
ABOUT KENDALL MERRITT
Kendall has been coaching, teaching and leading retreats since 2010. The foundation of her work is purpose, pleasure and possibilities where she believes intentionality is the access point to integrity. Her background of executive coaching, brand strategy, leadership development, and corporate culture merges with her studies of yogic intimacy and sexual embodiment. She is a leader within the John Wineland Teacher Training community and is entering her 3rd year of a 3 year, 1000 hour certification program. She believes in the integration of teachings and practices into daily life through her own lived experience and the intention of loving, living and leading with the fullness of your being. She supports women, men and couples through 1:1 and couples coaching, group programs, and live retreats. She is creating an Intentional Pleasure Product Company called The Saturation Line to bring luxury and intentional pleasure to everyday living. She loves playing with all things sensual, some of her favorite things include deep practice, slow mornings, fast cars, art focused florals, fine wine, home cooking and international travel. Life should be well lived and the way we love is the way we lead, as much as the way we lead is the way we love.
Let's be friends - Send me a note!bonus practice: divine desperation
The focus of this practice is about connecting to the divine desperation of our desires.
Before you begin this practice, explore what desperation feels like in your body… When have you been desperate for love, desperate to been seen, desperate to be met, desperate to be fucked. Where can you find the pulse of your desire in your body through the texture of desperation. How can you allow this desperation to be an access point to your desire as an offering to the divine.
Spotify Playlist: divine desperation
This practice requires two separate devices, one to play the audio file and one to play the Spotify playlist. Note: Under your settings on Spotify, set your crossfade to 8 seconds for the sound tracks to link up. Settings - Playback - Crossfade songs: 8 secs
*All practices will be uploaded to a portal for your access.
PLAY WITH ALL THE TEXTURES AND RANGE OF YOUR TURN ON
Have you ever said, "that's not me" when you see another woman expressing a particular flavor that you don't easily go to? Think the bubbly cheerleader or moody goth... we are all the textures of the universe and accessing different energies creates more range that we can bring in turn on.
